I miss you
Artist Statement
This picture of me captures how I’m
feeling, you can describe me as happy, sad, hurt, mad, anything. But if I had
to say I’d explain why I chose this picture, or why I’m explaining it the way I
am. If you could read my mind, I bet you’d be in tears. I’m hurting deep down
inside, although it might not look like it, I really am. Its always them days
when it’s a good day or a bad day or even an okay day. I have a lot going
through my mind. I lost my hero, my number one fan, my dad. How can you lose
someone that you were so close to, and expect everything to be okay? It hurts,
it really does. I take it day by day but he’s constantly on my mind. I still
have them days where all I want to do is break down and cry, but I also got to
realize he isn’t in pain like he was before and he’s also in a beautiful place
called heaven. I’d honestly do anything to bring my dad back, I wish I could,
or at least just have an hour or more to sit down with him if it was an option
to explain to him how much I miss him and give him a big hug. But all I can do
is think about the good memories we had and look at pictures of him in picture
frames. I’m basically in a tunnel, I’m struggling, and stressing… I want to
graduate to make my family and the people who care about me and especially my
dad proud of his little girl walking across the stage receiving a diploma and
saying she finally did it!
Flash
Fiction
He
got sick, then he died. The reason I picked that 6 word flash fiction was
because it related to my picture when I was talking a lot about my dad. I felt
as if it was true, because that same thing basically happened. It relates to
him and how he passed away.
He/she
says: It hurts, it really hurts. Especially when my daughter found out and saw
her dad pass away. She still is very hurt since that day, he’s constantly on
her mind and she wants to overcome all her struggles just to make her dad proud
of her. She wants to have good grades in school to be able to walk across that
stage receiving a diploma and happy that she did it for her dad. She has put a
lot of work in to her senior year, so she can graduate on time and be what she
wants to be when she starts classes at capri. The loss of her father hurts all
of us, we still think about it all the time and it still gets to us every day.
We all take it day by day and are there for each other just in case something
was to happen to one of us. We reach out, to each other.
They
say: everyone says that I need to hold on and take it day by day. And that I
need to hold on and work things step by step. Everyone is going to be there for
you no matter what the situation might be. They say they have your back and
there for you? Are they really? Just like they might say that they care for you
and wouldn’t know what they would do without you here. Do they care? Or are
they just saying it to just say it? Who knows… but people are there to give you
some good advice, and to be there when no one else was.
I
say: if I had to say anything, I’d talk about who is there for me and who
wasn’t, who would give me advice, and who would give me good advice about it.
I’d be specific for who and what I was talking about.
The Personality Myth (Reflection)
The reason I chose “The Personality
Myth” was because that’s what I knew more about. And could talk more about,
without it being too short and not okay. In the last 8 weeks of being in
perspectives I’ve learned a lot, such as, how to overcome different bias’s and
different personalities people might have. We’ve learned how to write a 6 word
flash fiction describing what it was about, we’ve learned a lot about
annotating, so we could write a journal about what we underlined. We also
learned about the whole “They say” “I say” thing which would be someone talking
in a different perspective than yourself.
In
the invisible podcast “They Personality Myth” they gave some very good details
on the different personalities, also they gave good detail on explaining the
audio of the 57 minutes that they had. Some people need to realize that
attitude changes, but personality doesn’t, that’s just the way life goes. Its
always been like that. And it’s always going to stay like that no matter what.
Your situation depends on your personality and how you describe yourself, or
how other people describe you. Your future isn’t a marshmallow. So, don’t treat
yourself like one. Everyone has a different personality and they also describe
it different. You should never think bad about yourself no matter how bad it
may get. Everything is here for a reason, so you should always make the best of
it instead of making the worst of it when it could be very good. Maybe some can
answer the questions we may have, I have 2 questions I have no idea about and
it would be good if I did. Why do we change our personality when we are in a
different situation? Or doesn’t a change in one affect the other? everyone has
personalities whether they are good or bad. That’s my reflection and how I
based it off the personality myth. (“Personality”)
You are so brave for sharing something as personal as your feelings of grief and loss. I feel the same way about my sister, there's no way to move around the truth that they're gone. There are only so many things you can do to try and pretend you're okay, but it often seems like no one believes you, no matter what kind of mask you put on. At the same time, you want them to understand your pain, even though there aren't too many who go through such a great loss, especially so early in their lives.
ReplyDeleteAs time passes, wounds begin to heal, but they never heal fully, and you understand that they truly are in a better place, but nothing can replace the longing of having your loved one by your side one last time. I understand greatly how this feels, and it is heartbreaking that others have to go through so much grief as well. Stay strong, girl. I know he's already really proud of you. :)
In your picture you could really feel the emotion and I felt it too when reading your flash fiction. The flash fiction really got to m, it's crazy ow just six words can express a broken heart. I relate to your feeling of grief and loss because I lost a parent too, my mom when I was four. That's something I don't think I'll every get over. A parents love is something irreplaceable. Your he/she says hit home when "It hurts, it really hurts. Especially when my daughter found out and saw her dad pass away." I felt your pain when reading that and I want you to know that it does get better. Just keep your chin up and know that your dad is watching you from heaven.
ReplyDeleteI know you've been through a lot recently from middle school up to now and i find brave that you can share your feeling on subject that is near to you.
ReplyDeleteI loved this story. I am so sorry to hear about your dad and I think it is so cool how brave you are being and strong you still have a passion to make your life good even though it might not seem that way and you are doing this not only for you but your dad as well
ReplyDeleteI really like your flash fiction and artist statement. you flash fiction really touch my heart. its so emotional. you are really brave and strong person to share your personal things like this.
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